What does anxiety really mean anyway?
Anxiety has been exploited.
Wouldn’t you agree?
I’m writing this mainly because I have felt misunderstood for so long. One thing a lot of you may not know about me is that I struggle with PTSD, anxiety, OCD, and panic disorder. It’s been my normal since I was a young and I’ve become accustomed to it throughout time. It’s progressively gotten worse over time and other times has gotten better. That’s the thing about anxiety, it can be predictable for some, but for others like me who are figuring it all out its hard to know what “triggers” you.
Too many mis or un diagnosed people are walking around looking for a cure to something they don’t even have when the answer can really be so simple.
It took me a long time and a lot of health related ordeals in my life to realize how much our mind, body and soul really do work together.
We wonder why our body never heals, or why we get sick all of the time. or why you never sleep, (or maybe you sleep too much.) Some of us eat too much or not enough,.. all of these things that obviously cause other health related issues. We could be smiling everyday and not even know how bad we are suffering from anxiety.
Then to solve it, some doctors are treating these completely invisible diseases that aren’t even there in the first place, they are just a result of something bigger and more complex rather than really getting to figure out whats really wrong.
and i never really realized how bad it was until i started suffering myself and dove as deep as i could for answers. Our bodies really do keep the score of everything that happens to us mentally. Therapy has played the biggest role in my healing journey. I will all day every day advocate for self advocacy and therapy.
Maybe that’s in the from if confronting your past like it was for me. Confronting the things you have been in denial of. Accepting the hurt and being thankful for it can take you so much further then you think possible.
And It all starts with grace.
Grace for yourself most importantly.
The term anxiety has been extremely abused over the years. Leaving hundreds of thousands of people who are suffering afraid to say or do anything about it.
With all of the misconceptions there are out there, its become much easier to just keep your struggles to yourself.
We don’t want anyone to feel sorry for us. or to believe we aren’t happy. It’s easy to pretend like nothing has never harmed us before; but the truth is that we are all suffering. Every second of every day. but in ways that no one else understands.
I often wonder if more of us felt like we weren’t alone, if we could actually acknowledge these things without fear of being shamed for them.
Maybe living in this world full of anxiety might just be somewhat of an easier one.
Our society has become so sensitized to every little thing that it’s hard for anyone to be real anymore. It seems that everyone gets offended by something.
People tend to ignore those of us with apparent scars mostly because they are in fear of confronting their own. To feel shame for feeling the way you and i do is something that is so sad to me. and its no wonder to me why suicide rates are so high.
The truth is that we are all going to have to face reality someday and whether or not you already have, you start to realize that nothing in life that’s worth being grateful for is ever easy. Facing a harsh reality is hard for some of us to believe and maybe it’s so hard because we don’t want to believe it. but we have to.
We have to let go of the things in our past that hurt us so that we can truly move forward from them. If we don’t let them go now we will continue to carry them with us weighing down our free spirit and hiding the light that’s been begging to shine all this time.
I hope these truths help you as much as they have helped me. Remember: its all about your mindset.
- You can’t change your past or the hurtful things that have been done to you.
- You are who you surround yourself with.
- The world owes you absolutely nothing, but you owe it yourself.
- Smiling is contagious, but so is anger, and resentment, and all of the other yucky stuff.
- Don’t ever think your struggle is worse than someone else’s, it could always be worse.
- Take control over what you worry about, it will literally eat you alive.
- You are meant to be here.
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The world needs you, and your story.
I know that it’s scary but I really encourage any one reading this that feels like they may need help to actually seek out help. Wherever you feel the most comfortable.
Do a simple google search on therapists in your area and make a list of questions you want to ask them. And don’t forget to ask about EMDR!
It took me years in finding the right therapist.
Heck, it took me almost my whole life to realize that my problems were real problems and to feel the need to talk about them.
Don’t feel bad about interviewing a therapist when you meet one for the first time. Especially for yourself to make sure it’s a good fit for you.
Be firm and strong for yourself. You are the only one that will care for and love yourself as much as you will.
You are worthy of so much more than what this life has been giving you.
If you are ever struggling and you are feeling like you don’t belong, reach out. Please. You matter more than you know and your life means something.
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